So travel to school on the hideous bus full of loud people all proving they rule the bus and the rest of us are just trying to not be noticed! Just get me there!!!
So off to school, the social bubble where you can never escape the people you don’t connect with, get on with or share any familiarity with. Just another four years to endure with all these people… Trying to just get through… do what you have to and get home. But that’s not enough, messages of ‘more effort’ ‘the most important tests of your life’ ‘your responsibility’ ringing in their ears… so not in the mood for this today.
Leave the social hell having survived lunch by sitting with a few friends and even laughed once or twice… didn’t manage to start a convo today.. but still could have been worse. The disaster of English with that one kid who insists on being so loud and stopping class, can they not just leave it so we can all just get through quickly and quietly…no… OK gr8!
Now laden down with four more bits of homework and more belief that my friend is not OK so still worrying about her. Note to self, try and make her smile at least once later…. she would do it for me!!
Back on the rubbish bus, avoiding all eye contact and trying to just focus on how close to home I am.
So I get in… bag down, shoes off and I just want to stop doing anything and decompress… oh no… mum’s asking about my day and reminding me of the list of jobs… empty lunchbox, shoes on the rack, and you still need to tidy that pit of a room!!! Yeah gr8, thanks mum… just not right now.
Back in my sanctuary of my room. I just lay on my bed for a moment… just one minute to think and feel nothing for a second.
OK the wallow won’t help… should be doing homework… ugh homework… just five minutes online to calm my brain…. … ….
Oh, what!!!! Its been an hour… how? Knickers… OK rinse the homework… two bits done, one to go… onwards… oh, hang on, dinner’s ready.. have to stop. Damn, that’s gonna ruin my flow. OK eat dinner, love mum for cooking it but spag bol is not my fav! Right HOMEWORK!! Oh, hang on my friend has messaged… speak with her, she’s important to me… homework after.
Mum bursts into my room (why is knocking so hard to understand!?!? Privacy is all I want, as the shock of her just being there doesn’t help), anyway now earache as I have been home two hours and my room’s still a mess. As she’s picking bits up off my floor (bowls, glasses and dirty socks) she’s telling me how annoying, disappointing this is… yeah thanks mum. Final annoyance… she asks about my homework! Argh!!! Back off… I’m trying!!!!!
Finally, everyone’s in bed and the house is quiet… no one to be bursting into my room, no more comments or thoughts from others… and breath. OK that stupid bit of homework… or catch up on the group chat and… no way…. six snaps I haven’t replied too… can’t leave people unopened!!!! OK do that… then homework….
Then I wake up to the echo of the shout from downstairs…. its time to get up… what… how…argh.. here we go again!
